December 8, 2013
December 5, 2013
5 December 2013
They say that there is a suffering and then there is solace. My struggle seem to be unending. Its been more than a year since I have felt this misery that I am sinking into and I sometimes tend to think that I am in love with this melancholy. Not perfecting it though. Destiny has been kind to get me through on a below average success rate but the struggle to keep up is beyond my capacity some times. I feel like fighting a losing battle. A very slowly losing battle in the field where there are enemies and there is guerrilla war and you never know where the next strike will come from. Sometime it does come from within - entropy they call it, i fight it. And sleep it off and wake up to a new day and find myself smiling at strangers again. Some of them are pleasant too. And a few known faces turn around.
I feel lonely. But they think I am in a lovely place. Its the perspective. Some one in Mumbai is dying in the slums next to the airport that harbours million dollar planes every four and half minutes in its peak times because of lack of medication and food but is surrounded by tremendous love and affection and is ready to knock on the doors of heaven in minutes. But there are also people who live in houses with a view with no one to share that view with sulk and complain how difficult their lives are too. Its the perspective.
Yes i am human and i make mistakes and I am sorry for all those but maybe there is no forgiving this time.
Its cold and wet tonight. my pet - plant is happy after its morning sunlight and a potion of water that i gave it this afternoon. But it tells me in signals that only i can read, another perspective. And yes it is cold. It feels lonely and i am miserable right now.
I feel lonely. But they think I am in a lovely place. Its the perspective. Some one in Mumbai is dying in the slums next to the airport that harbours million dollar planes every four and half minutes in its peak times because of lack of medication and food but is surrounded by tremendous love and affection and is ready to knock on the doors of heaven in minutes. But there are also people who live in houses with a view with no one to share that view with sulk and complain how difficult their lives are too. Its the perspective.
Yes i am human and i make mistakes and I am sorry for all those but maybe there is no forgiving this time.
Its cold and wet tonight. my pet - plant is happy after its morning sunlight and a potion of water that i gave it this afternoon. But it tells me in signals that only i can read, another perspective. And yes it is cold. It feels lonely and i am miserable right now.
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