Dear...
Think about someone in your life who is very important to you. It might be your partner, a close friend or family member. Imagine you only have one opportunity to tell this person how important they are to you. Now write a short letter to this person, describing how much you care for them and the impact they have had on your life.
Dear Ajit,
How are you?
Breaking news: You are the most important person in my life.
I know you have heard this same thing from me many different times and I will continue saying this.
But I wonder what is it that repels me from you...
I guess there's still equal love in our hearts for each other, but we tend to nurture it in different ways.
You fell in love with me and enjoyed a short roller coaster ride that ended somewhere. When you called it an end is when I started rising more and more in your love. I realised that you are not just a friend I have, not just a partner but you truly bring out the best in me. While you are in love with me, your genuine interest in my well-being and my progress made me want to do better. The same 24 hour day had more happier moments when you were around.
But then you had chosen a path for yourself and there was no space for me to be on it with you at that time. You drifted apart, grew someone else that purposely lost interest in me because that interest if nurtured suddenly crossed lines to explore disputed territories of love & affection. You weren't ready for that yet.
I spent last year being hopeless, depressed & as an alcoholic. There were moments of enjoyment. Some travel. A lot of that was mundane. I lost my internal shine which became visible.
But here I am, Its been over a month now that I haven't had a drink.
Aai's presence and some little exercises are bringing a better version of me
I might learn to shine differently but the curious me, curious about how my Ajit is doing still feels hopeful.
I do wish you contentment Ajit. I know you are not materialistic and memories are more valuable for you. I know there will be a time when those memories about us will come back to you & there will be a dialogue between us two.
Let me evolve a little more. Let me fix that personal shine for a little bit. Let me find a little success too. I do want you to see me dazzling internally as well as externally. Thats when I want you to want to take our selfie & hashtag it as lost and found, love, forever.
Shall we get there together sometime?
Yours only
Abham
Think about someone in your life who is very important to you. It might be your partner, a close friend or family member. Imagine you only have one opportunity to tell this person how important they are to you. Now write a short letter to this person, describing how much you care for them and the impact they have had on your life.
Dear Ajit,
How are you?
Breaking news: You are the most important person in my life.
I know you have heard this same thing from me many different times and I will continue saying this.
But I wonder what is it that repels me from you...
I guess there's still equal love in our hearts for each other, but we tend to nurture it in different ways.
You fell in love with me and enjoyed a short roller coaster ride that ended somewhere. When you called it an end is when I started rising more and more in your love. I realised that you are not just a friend I have, not just a partner but you truly bring out the best in me. While you are in love with me, your genuine interest in my well-being and my progress made me want to do better. The same 24 hour day had more happier moments when you were around.
But then you had chosen a path for yourself and there was no space for me to be on it with you at that time. You drifted apart, grew someone else that purposely lost interest in me because that interest if nurtured suddenly crossed lines to explore disputed territories of love & affection. You weren't ready for that yet.
I spent last year being hopeless, depressed & as an alcoholic. There were moments of enjoyment. Some travel. A lot of that was mundane. I lost my internal shine which became visible.
But here I am, Its been over a month now that I haven't had a drink.
Aai's presence and some little exercises are bringing a better version of me
I might learn to shine differently but the curious me, curious about how my Ajit is doing still feels hopeful.
I do wish you contentment Ajit. I know you are not materialistic and memories are more valuable for you. I know there will be a time when those memories about us will come back to you & there will be a dialogue between us two.
Let me evolve a little more. Let me fix that personal shine for a little bit. Let me find a little success too. I do want you to see me dazzling internally as well as externally. Thats when I want you to want to take our selfie & hashtag it as lost and found, love, forever.
Shall we get there together sometime?
Yours only
Abham
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