December 9 2018

Dearest Ajitam

Thank you for talking to me for those 10 seconds. I really appreciate that. I must have upset you really badly and that’s why you wish not to talk to me anymore. I sincerely wish you to be happy and I would like to see that with my eyes from time to time - hence all the contact that I’m trying to make to get you to talk to me and forgive me. 

This could be my last ever attempt to contact you. I feel hurt that you don’t want to talk to me. But if that makes you happy, I think i will have to give up on my urge to talk to you, to see you or to hug you. 

I manifested a few things in my blog over last few months, not sure if you seen them. You know that you always have a special spot in my mind and your presence in some sort makes me content. I will be thinking about you all the time... Christmas (gonna send you a present please), my birthday, New Years ... 

I do feel abandoned and useless and I will sink somewhere and I don’t know but I’ll have to find a meaning to my life again. Your void is being felt immensely for the time. But I think I’m a survivor, nothing wrecks me, I’ll get through this too. 

But you be good, I will always be there for you should you ever need me. If you forgive me, you know where to find me too.

Yours 

Abham.