December 15

I think something is about to happen. I feel the negativity already. Or something has already happened just that I should still need to know about it. Usually in my recorded memory, December had been a good month. But this year it has not been like that. The only good things I saw this month so far had been because some investments I did in the past matured during this time. That does not mean anything is happening the way it should have been. The state of my mind is in jeopardy. The atmosphere around still stands neutral, not influencing anything good or bad in particular. Still I sense the negativity which homes in my mind I reckon.
I tend to contemplate that I might have started being a little extra greedy. I might have started expecting the things to happen my way in every next step that has to follow. In a way I had always been the chosen one with things falling in places, all the time. It always gave me a feeling that there is some force looking down upon me. May be it is somebody’s plan that I still have to handle my de-shuffled time and look forward to being looked upon.
This comes as the first entry as the newly graduated Master, however I still don’t feel the reason to rejoice the newly acquired achievement. Let me find the reason.
Just for the note, last week I could go to Alice Springs to spend another thousand for some essential and not very essential things. I could give a lot of things on hold a direction so that gave me a little satisfaction in the end. And then when I got back, I got two extra offs, with which I could catch up on a much needed break only to discover how easy was it to get lazy again! But then the new week began again, and I guess my next breaks shall fall in the New Year, so not many complaints against the whole laziness.