Hello,
I am guessing I have been successful so far in settling down in the new 'city'. There is so much to know about this place and there are so many people around (compared to what I used to have)... And I tried to make new connections too, but it seemed a little too fast. I realised I was still using my past location's parameters to acquaint with new people, and that appeared to be a dangerous plan.
I am enjoying this new freedom, keeping in mind what my actual plan needs to be. It gets saddening sometimes when I don't see a few things turn the way I want them to, weather for example! But I guess i should not let that affect me. I am here as a step progressive than what I was before and my unceasing attempt will be to be on the same track.
Amalgamation though on keeping some older painful contacts alive or let them go disappear with time... I guess I will need to spend some time on that. I wish to confront a separation though, and wish to intend it too.
Apart from that great apartment, messy housemate, but there are worse so no complains, job i do is good, people around are few and I wish that i can prove to be important and do a good job in the end and 'they' can be a little thankful.
Other than that life goes on... Akki's style is changed completely. its a planner now and I am no more documenting any personal histories
A
November 30, 2010
November 4, 2010
November 4 2010
Hello again,
I am assuming I wont get a peaceful moment like this for some more time and when I will get it things would have changed so much that I would not get the reality i feel to put in words ever again. Nevertheless, Lets put this reality I feel in words for now.
I have left my job, left a house I called home and amongst my own scattered luggage I sit in a friends house drinking my personal favourite summer drink when summer is not even here.
I saw a UFO today flying in the sky, it didn't disappear it didn't land it did nothing, it just kept flying. All the while it was in the sky I kept wishing something, unsure if any of that will ever become true!
I did realise one more thing today that I was still an invisible personality for people i worked for, my contribution was not even substantial that I could even enjoy a decent farewell. I am not complaining, but I felt may be I did not touch these lives to such extent that I could deserve that. Not that I expect something in an obvious way but this wish was like for a dead man who dies and he would expect a few eyes to well up even if he hated tears for ever in while he was still alive.
My contribution was always my priority and I am thankful for every opportunity that I dealt with as a responsible one. I will see them once again tomorrow once again I shall see if i at least deserve a smile.
I am saddened by a separation with recently acquainted friends: Cintia and Prateek and my first tear was dropped when I saw them off on a bus taking them to airport to meet a flight to Sydney. Cintia made me a farewell card that I haven't even seen yet because it hurts realising the separation lined with so much affection.
Plus there is another separation that is going to be ironic. Because the bond that was made was on the same day I had put my papers down at work, yes approximately two weeks ago from today. Whats meant to be will BE! I cannot help it.
Again the house is clean, Aman is celebrating her 21st birthday and I will celebrate my last day at the resort.
Love, just enough for you to remember me.
Your
A
I am assuming I wont get a peaceful moment like this for some more time and when I will get it things would have changed so much that I would not get the reality i feel to put in words ever again. Nevertheless, Lets put this reality I feel in words for now.
I have left my job, left a house I called home and amongst my own scattered luggage I sit in a friends house drinking my personal favourite summer drink when summer is not even here.
I saw a UFO today flying in the sky, it didn't disappear it didn't land it did nothing, it just kept flying. All the while it was in the sky I kept wishing something, unsure if any of that will ever become true!
I did realise one more thing today that I was still an invisible personality for people i worked for, my contribution was not even substantial that I could even enjoy a decent farewell. I am not complaining, but I felt may be I did not touch these lives to such extent that I could deserve that. Not that I expect something in an obvious way but this wish was like for a dead man who dies and he would expect a few eyes to well up even if he hated tears for ever in while he was still alive.
My contribution was always my priority and I am thankful for every opportunity that I dealt with as a responsible one. I will see them once again tomorrow once again I shall see if i at least deserve a smile.
I am saddened by a separation with recently acquainted friends: Cintia and Prateek and my first tear was dropped when I saw them off on a bus taking them to airport to meet a flight to Sydney. Cintia made me a farewell card that I haven't even seen yet because it hurts realising the separation lined with so much affection.
Plus there is another separation that is going to be ironic. Because the bond that was made was on the same day I had put my papers down at work, yes approximately two weeks ago from today. Whats meant to be will BE! I cannot help it.
Again the house is clean, Aman is celebrating her 21st birthday and I will celebrate my last day at the resort.
Love, just enough for you to remember me.
Your
A
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