Sounds of Silence

What an experience... It starts with a people that you adore... then someone tells you about this Dinner experience in the desert, and then you decide that you want to be a part of it...
I was told about that as well! And then I already had a people that I adored (A LOT) who said affirmative word to be a part of it and some attempts at a shrude Hotel and a bus on the porch of another hotel got us going on... it drew on tar and then on sand, the driver kept cracking jokes, very generic Australian! And that got us to the site,
Some canapes, a beautiful farewell to the sun with some alcohol, my preference a White wine and a beer to a people that I adored... it went on, brought our spirits up high,
back from the dune some food served, eaten and then adored... it got darker, I got to know a little bit more about the people who sat on the same table, some capable, some achievers some still struggllers like me enjoyed the moment that was so unworldly that took us to a restaurant that had no walls.
alcohol kept pouring and when tobacco got on fire a Spaniard woman got along with us and she talked about bugs and french people and Brisbane...
Evening went on, Adorable people became three in stead of two and alcohol brought that personal touch when it asked sensitive questions to which a sane person did not have an answer to ..
Main course served followed by the sweetest of the ports and Peter served Coffee which was left on the table in a half drunk cup..
The bus called out, it was going to leave us to the nearest civilization available... "A Hotel" Some more pictures taken, more personalization,
And to date an experience which was termed as one of the most "wierdest" became one of the most "Memorable" when somethings made me realize the speciality of that incident with a sinful tear that tore my heart apart, that it was compelled to cry a dry tear and then camouflage it...
A civilized lonely night that still had my spirits high and took my People away from me... and the instatunuous reaction became too negative... But i intend to change it now... Not because the dinner and Karla and Peter were so great at their job, but because my words hurt my people.. people who gave me an affirmation and people who showed me an affection and people whom i brough a tear in their eye...
I loved Sounds, and that evening can never be back in any one our lives ever again..

November 23

The Macbook works fine. I am a lot more comfortable with it now, than how I used to. Things are changing everyday. The day when things don't change it feels weird. Nothing will be same.

Death

Death is peaceful
Death is the truth
Death is to be dealth with

Death should be peaceful
Death should be respected
Death should be mourned for..

Life is to live
Life is also a Truth
Life is Watever

I made a mistake and felt too difficult to deal with it. But then I think there is some joy in pain.. I am enjoying that right now... it shall go away... and then then there will be an abyss I shall have to go through.. It shall take me through actual zeroness, but i know i shall survive, become someone i never was, go through a transition, grow another layer making it difficult for my future psychiatrists to penetrate, but who cares about them? Anyways, Lets live the moment filled with ununderstandables.